Looking back ( <_< )

Another year has come to an end . . . pushing me a step closer to my inevitable . . .


Having finished reading another chapter in The Book Of Life, I still don't anticipate the conclusion though...the story so far had been interesting, and educational as well (^_^). However, at this moment the story is going through a dull phase, and I don't feel the excitement.. I have always believed that a true reader will always try to hold on to the earlier pages of a book...and The Book of Life is no exception.

Therefore I take this time to 'Look back' into 2007, before bidding it farewell... Let me see how much of it still holds a place in my mind. It is an efficient way to measure the moments one has lived through. Lets see if I have lived enough...

But sorry friends,I cannot share these reflections with you as my scribblings wont make any sense. It is impossible to represent fragments of my life in a page (or web page -_-) without delving deep into my innermost secrets.

That will be so strange...sometimes I wonder how little you know of me...

Ciyao!

SIN
^_^

UPGRADE=

Yes...finally i have added some elements of interest to this page...so even if theres no blog to enjoy..its still useful.

NOW the inevitable...

WHY DID I UPLOAD THIS PICTURE...???!!!

Was i out of my mind?!Actually its because m very much in my mind!
To some this picture might evoke erotic thoughts (what can i say..a female body IS erotic)
But theres more to this picture...
I think I can relate this picture to a woman...and her dreams...
I have tried to read this lady's face..and her emotions..
what can she be feeling? It sometimes looks like she is being indifferent. As if she just doesn't care if people are looking at her...maybe its very natural to her to be this way.

Well i can go on and on about this picture, without reaching to any conclusion at all. Thats not the reason i have put up this pic..
i wanted to know what others might feel on this regard.(specially women...cause i can guess what men might feel! lol)
It will be very interesting to know various point of views .
I am sure each comment will be unique in itself and add to the gravity of the issue.
So feel free to give your opinion(through the shout box OR as regular comments) as to what and why this lady in the picture might be feeling and what does this picture really signify? You can also comment on the style of art etc.Theres no ONE' answer to this.

well thats it for now.
hope this keeps you people occupied till the next update!
PS:MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A GREAT BOXING DAY ;)

ciao! SIN^_^

CrossXWiNd~

Its been really long..hasn't it?
I might have begun with an apology ..but i got some thing that will sure be a pay back for keeping my readers waiting for such a long time...
(though that depends on that IF some one reads this)
It was last month...I got carried away in our poetry class (poesy always has a sort of intoxicating effect on me)
The teachers lectures were not making any sense any way..so i thought it wont harm any one if i took a dip into my ocean of thoughts...
I slowly turned the pages of my exercise book and the neat last page was facing me...
The pencil in my hand...(borrowed from the fellow sitting behind to take down notes...i never care to bring my own)...
And i wrote...in a rhythm..no not poetry(urge to escape from poetry Was the reason of my picking up the pen after all...)
I didn't even read what i wrote..until last night...(about time i start reading the subject as tomorrow is my literature paper -_-)
It really made a lot of sense..and it really spoke of what i felt a while ago..so i thought it would be really nice to share it with my friends here...I couldn't think of a decent heading for it...but now while writing the blog..the term Cross wind" struck my head..don't know how i feel it related..or maybe i know..cant express...
So here it goes..(its nothing to be that worked up about actually..but still)



CROSS X WIND~
(spare the spelling mistakes...philosophy avoids technical aspects)

"I feel an excitement inside of me...but at the same time i am so calm.This is a strange feeling..
unknown but familiar...cant remember when was the last time i felt it...that really doeasnt make me restless..i am patient.
I think i have learn t to mask my emotions...without fighting them rebellious thoughts back...but peacefully.
A thought lights again ...
have i grown up?that was fast...wasn't it only day ago..i was laughing at a childish joke? But i guess this isn't a fit parameter to gauge whether i have grown up.... or not...
Surely i have learn t to measure my words and watch out for consequences..for words are chains...Confidence?
...hmm.... Don't know,but surely you learn a lot from past misfortunes...
This whole thing has certainly changed my perception of life..its more prone to clearity now..but occasional mist does feel soothing at times...
Did i grow up overnight?
But deep inside the voice says i am still the same...the free spirited soul that looks up to me through the mirror..
A bird! Yes yes A bird!
Who doesn't know which branch to call the home for the night...But she doesn't care..Does she?
She likes the scent of the dew wet night..and the rhythm of the wind...ah what music...She would sing her best song to whoever lends an ear to her..she likes to see people enjoy it...She takes pride in it.
She wont call it being fickle minded.
Sure she dreams of a brighter future...but she wont plan for it..it will just happen wont it?
.........She would like to build a nest some day and settle down.


Till then she will fly..with her throbbing heart..into the crosswind~"



Well that was all...the end line i have added just now..to fit it with the heading..hope you enjoyed it..and really thankful to you for your patience..for going through this entire thing..
You can interpret it in any way you like..i give you this liberty...
Ah well its time for my departure..
Dont like to say this but good bye!


Take care..see you next time...

Ciyao!

Sin~

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WHO AM I?

I thought i lot..and came to the conclusion that i must wright a few lines about myself..other wise it will be meaningless to read my blog wont it?
It was my earnest wish to make it funny and enjoyable..but i don't think i will match my own standards..he he
reason is i am more of a philosopher today...


Back to the point...WHO AM I?
Now to think of it..even i don't know the exact answer to it...as if it is out of my reach..
but i will try to explore the depths of my dark head to know myself better..
cause it makes life so much better if we could just know..WHO WE ARE...


well it is tough to explain who you are...though its easy from materialistic point of view...
well what i wright next is only part of what i am able to discover in me...through a test in ticles web site..and i found it quit relevant...the rest is a mystery...

(be patient its gona be long...and here Sinyorita is me)

Openness To Experience

Your high score in the Openness category means that you probably have a strong creative streak. Your broad intellectual curiosity and your interest in the various arts set you apart. Some people may consider you somewhat of a dreamer, and your taste for variety often means moving quickly on to the next experience. This tendency makes you appear a bit flighty and inconsistent. But these elements of your personality simply reflect a character full of new ideas and charged with emotions.

Conscientiousness

Your medium score in the Conscientiousness category means that you have achieved a solid balance in your outlook towards responsibility. You are probably somewhat organized, with a little room for improvement. Your priorities probably reflect a mix of work and play. Thoughtfulness characterizes your thinking style, so you give gravity to important decisions without making a big deal out of minor issues. You are probably serious about achieving success, but do not feel completely driven by this motivation. All in all, you've got a very healthy perspective on work and duty.

Extraversion

Your medium score in the Extraversion category defines your social identity. You are probably comfortable in either a crowd or by yourself, and spending time alone or with company is equally enjoyable. When among others, you tend to stand in the foreground, although you may not always wish to take the position of a leader. Instead, you seem to prefer moving between the role of leader and follower, as the situation requires. You probably keep a moderately active social life; you're generally on the lookout for excitement, but certainly don't require it. You tend to keep a fairly positive emotional outlook, and people can usually count on your for some good cheer.

Agreeableness

The Agreeableness category refers to your social disposition. Your medium score indicates someone who balances the priorities of your own inner voice with the needs of others. You tend to be concerned with the harmony of the group, while maintaining a certain independence. Depending on the situation, you might adopt a stance that defers to the wishes of others, or else assert your own individuality. In this way, you have a great deal of tact, and believe in the situational equality of people. You probably have an approachable and kind personality. People probably admire you for your ability to speak your mind when appropriate.

Negative Emotionality

Negative Emotionality refers to your emotional reactivity. Your medium score means that you're someone who negotiates your emotions depending on your situation. Sometimes you may feel quite sensitive and emotional, while other times you may remain resilient to outside pressures. This quality of adaptation best describes your emotional character. You maintain a rational outlook, which is moderated by feelings. For example, you can sometimes feel sad, stressed, worried or embarrassed under the weight of a situation, but you are able to act quite calm and reserved, without yielding to the stress. Responsive, without being overly reactive, is the best way to describe you.



Well now i am tired....will wright MY introduction later...
till then digest these crap...

thats all folks!

CIAO!

LOVE

SIN

INTRO POSTPONDED~

WELL YOU HEARD IT RIGHT...
i am not introducing myself today (yes not even today! -_-)

The reason is i am too full of things to decorate my intro..and i don't wanna have a dull intro..
so it can wait..

its amazing how you can relate your life to songs so precisely..
i was never dedicated a song...not till last year..
but at that time i didn't have the good opportunity to lay my hands on that track..resulting in me never knowing what that song was dedicated for..
but recently... i was dedicated a song (yes yet again)
and this time i made sure i HAVE it..
and you wont believe it..it left me spellbound...it was a perfect dedication...
it totally matched the persons feelings for me..even the situation did!
i was awed!

i really enjoyed the song...
what?..you wanna know which song it is...?
hah!
as if i will tel you..!..it can be anything...a romantic one..and inspirational song!...anything!...keep guessing!

ps: i will try my best to post my intro as soon as possible...quit wining k?

"love is a part of life..not the heart of life~"


ciao!
love
SIN~

THIS IS MY FIRST EVER BLOG...and i will try my best to....be as boring as possible!

Well i am starting with a peom i wrote a couple of days ago...chew upon that untill my sense of humour gets back..(its on vacation)..and i find some thing interesting to post...

heres the tittle- (i dont belive i am going to type that shit!)

nOTE:Please DO not READ the violatte porsions..as they are unnessesary spam)

I Know to LIVE~ (It IS the tittle..and i DO know to live!)


When I am Right,
I know to Express. (And you will pay dire consiquenses..with you dont agree with me)
When i am Wrong,
I know to Redress.

When I am Hope,
I know to Lead. (Hope or not..i lead ..)
When I am Despair,
I know to retread. (i am never despair..nor for once..^_^)

When I am Lost, ('helloew..any body there..?...echoe!')
I know to Trace. (There!..i see humans!..or..is it a tree? o_0)
When I am Challenged, (wana bet? +_+)
I know to Face. (Hell yea!)

When I am Grudge, (Dont mess with me ...`_')
I know to Forget, (this is a lie...-_- revenge is sweet... XD)
When I am Naive ('whats that?'..'how you do this'..what it means..?.' etc..etc..)
I know to Hesitate (*pokes*..'HELLOW!..M ASKING SOME THING!!!!!!!!!!!!')

When I am Need, (I want that..oops!..i NEED that...)
I know to Hide. (its ok if u cant give it to me...i have other ways.. )
When I am Greed, ( *drools*)
I know to Chide. (*slaps herself*..but still..*drools*)

When I am Comfort, (Slides along a soft cusion)
I Know to Feel. ( Its SO true)
When I am Hurt,("OUCH!!!!")
I know to Heal. (I carry my first aid kit every where..^_^)

//...any one reading this?...still awake!..hah! O_O...

When I am Faith,(I am pissed..to be frank)
I Know to Trust. ('moma told me..not to talk to stranger..stranger is danger..)
When I am Power,(I am supreme)
I know to Just. (I am law...$_$)

When I am Insecure.(i screw things up..no big deal..)
I know to fear. (OMGAH!...i got some one following me..pervert!)
When I am Confience, ( my nose is high up some where in the everest)
I know to Share. (as long as you aknowledge my support ^_^)

When I am Thirst, (you dont ana be near me XD)
I know to Quest. ("where are you...o honey!!!!!!!!!")
When I am Satisfied,( i can get no! satisfaction..-a song by spears))
I know to Rest.(but i am not satiated..so whats the point?)

When I am Truth,(i swear this is true)
I Know to Bear. (as long its sounds good to my ears)
When I Silence,(which i am never..uh uh)
I Know to Hear.(muzix of a specific gnre)

When I am Sucees,( I dont cheat..*has her finger crossed*)
I know to Compromise.(as long as i get proper insentives!)
When I am Retarded,(24X7..on the net)
I Know to Energise.( energy pills do wonders)

When I am Question,(Yes i do that a lot)
I know to Recieve.(it shouldnt be some thing cheap)
When I Am Life,
I Know to LIVE...and THATS SO TRUE!

well thats all folks!

i hope you knocked yourself down..o wait..why am i wrighting this..if no one is reading?

any ways..i do hope that you DIDnot READ my comments..

hehe

ciao!!!!!!!!!

LOVE

SIN~