Looking back on my rear view mirror, i find a girl who was uncertain about a lot of things. She suffered from not being able to keep faith in anything or anyone.She was so insecure and haggard by life's injustice that she would tear up at slightest provocation. She would suffocate, knowing that her strength as well as her weakness is the same things. She couldn't spit it out, nor could she swallow.
But she tried very hard to be able to believe and have faith in a person, once again.She still wanted to believe in True Love, Companionship, and Commitment.That 'Honesty really is the best policy', that truth really does win over lies, and that Dreams truly come true if you believe, and put your hundred percent honest effort into realizing them.
AND, On this very day she reestablished that faith and once more started to believe.Once more she took a chance with her mended trust and heart as well.
After 2 years, her life has certainly gone through some distinct changes.She has learned and evolved as a person and of course, seen some yet painful days, but, she still holds on to her faith very strongly...and at times fighting for it.
What didn't change, is the fact that she still cries.
Sometimes you see her tears. But she has grown to know better. So she craft fully feigns maturity and hides them with her indifferent and cold smiles, and forced sarcasm and out-of-age maturity.For, its better to be called an Ice Queen , nonchalant, and anti-romantic;
than a pathetic wretch of a woman lead by heart and foolish sentiments.
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