Its been really long..hasn't it?
I might have begun with an apology ..but i got some thing that will sure be a pay back for keeping my readers waiting for such a long time...
(though that depends on that IF some one reads this)
It was last month...I got carried away in our poetry class (poesy always has a sort of intoxicating effect on me)
The teachers lectures were not making any sense any way..so i thought it wont harm any one if i took a dip into my ocean of thoughts...
I slowly turned the pages of my exercise book and the neat last page was facing me...
The pencil in my hand...(borrowed from the fellow sitting behind to take down notes...i never care to bring my own)...
And i wrote...in a rhythm..no not poetry(urge to escape from poetry Was the reason of my picking up the pen after all...)
I didn't even read what i wrote..until last night...(about time i start reading the subject as tomorrow is my literature paper -_-)
It really made a lot of sense..and it really spoke of what i felt a while ago..so i thought it would be really nice to share it with my friends here...I couldn't think of a decent heading for it...but now while writing the blog..the term Cross wind" struck my head..don't know how i feel it related..or maybe i know..cant express...
So here it goes..(its nothing to be that worked up about actually..but still)
CROSS X WIND~
(spare the spelling mistakes...philosophy avoids technical aspects)
"I feel an excitement inside of me...but at the same time i am so calm.This is a strange feeling..
unknown but familiar...cant remember when was the last time i felt it...that really doeasnt make me restless..i am patient.
I think i have learn t to mask my emotions...without fighting them rebellious thoughts back...but peacefully.
A thought lights again ...
have i grown up?that was fast...wasn't it only day ago..i was laughing at a childish joke? But i guess this isn't a fit parameter to gauge whether i have grown up.... or not...
Surely i have learn t to measure my words and watch out for consequences..for words are chains...Confidence?
...hmm.... Don't know,but surely you learn a lot from past misfortunes...
This whole thing has certainly changed my perception of life..its more prone to clearity now..but occasional mist does feel soothing at times...
Did i grow up overnight?
But deep inside the voice says i am still the same...the free spirited soul that looks up to me through the mirror..
A bird! Yes yes A bird!
Who doesn't know which branch to call the home for the night...But she doesn't care..Does she?
She likes the scent of the dew wet night..and the rhythm of the wind...ah what music...She would sing her best song to whoever lends an ear to her..she likes to see people enjoy it...She takes pride in it.
She wont call it being fickle minded.
Sure she dreams of a brighter future...but she wont plan for it..it will just happen wont it?
.........She would like to build a nest some day and settle down.
Till then she will fly..with her throbbing heart..into the crosswind~"
Well that was all...the end line i have added just now..to fit it with the heading..hope you enjoyed it..and really thankful to you for your patience..for going through this entire thing..
You can interpret it in any way you like..i give you this liberty...
Ah well its time for my departure..
Dont like to say this but good bye!
Take care..see you next time...
Ciyao!
Sin~
